Chorus:

My tears have gone cold, I'm wonderin' why I'm still living at all,
November morning, rain is falling, and I don't cry at all,
Coz even if I cried it'd be the same, no pic of you on my desktop
That reminds me that it's very bad, it's very bad.


Louder Chorus:

My tears have gone cold, I'm wonderin' why I'm still living at all,
November morning, rain is falling, and I don't cry at all,
Coz even if I cried it'd be the same, no pic of you on my desktop
That reminds me that it's very bad, it's very bad.



1st verse:

Hi C.,
I mailed you but you're not replying,
I keep my phone on at night, I'd be so glad "bout a reply
I've sent two emails back in July,
If they don't reach you, no wonder why,
It might have been some problem with your address or something,
Sometimes I get excited and skip letters when I type it.
But anyway, leave that, how are you C., how's your life there?
I'm tryin' to come there too, my folks want me here but I don't care.
If I can come to US, where'd I go, can you guess? I'd come to Seattle.
I think I'd take Manhattan for a start too, I'm sorry
I talk only about myself like Eminem does, I know you dislike it.
I know I say it every day, but I really love you, hey,
I even liked all that small stuff you used to say.
I'd only like to hear from you and maybe get your picture, C.,
I love those things you used to do here too, I know how hard that was for you,
Anyway, hope you're OK C., write me back, just to chat,
I'd be yours entirely, your friend, D.


Chorus:

My tears have gone cold, I'm wonderin' why I'm still living at all,
November morning, rain is falling, and I don't cry at all,
Coz even if I cried it'd be the same, no pic of you on my desktop
That reminds me that it's very bad, it's very bad.


2nd verse:

Hi C.,
You still ain't mailed or called, I hope you're not bothered,
I ain't a stalker, I think you could keep your promise, but doesn't matter,
If you didn't wanna email me since August you didn't have to,
But you could have told me why or what that's like for you,
That's my biggest problem C., though I'm just 15 years old
I'd wait for you for ages in this depression, but you'd still say no,
That's kinda cruel C., I know you're not like that,
I'd like to be just your friend C., I miss the day when we last met.
I ain't that mad, I can't believe you'd ever lie to me,
Remember when you were here you said you'd reply to me,
That we'd keep in touch. See, I still like you anyway,
Though I don't like any lies either.
Used to be like a real wench to myself, hope I'll never again see her.
I can relate to what you told me "bout yourself,
So when I have a hopeless day I think of you, refuse other help
Coz I really have no one else, without you nothing helps
When I'm depressed.
I even thought "bout trying to cut my chest
But never just to see how much it bleeds,
And never for the adrenaline, I think that would be the only escape for me,
See, all you've ever told me's real, and I respect you coz you've never lied,
I only talk of you, tryin' to figure out why you hide,
But no one understands the love I feel for you C., please trust me,
They don't know what it's like when your life's buried in dust, how it feels,
You've gotta call me C., I'll be yours frankly,
You'll never lose me.
I'm whole yours, D.


Chorus:

My tears have gone cold, I'm wonderin' why I'm still living at all,
November morning, rain is falling, and I don't cry at all,
Coz even if I cried it'd be the same, no pic of you on my desktop
That reminds me that it's very bad, it's very bad.


3rd verse:

Hi Mr. "We'll never be friends" (no offense),
This is the very last email I ever send you, have trust,
It's been six months and still no word. I don't deserve it?
I know you got my last 90 emails, I attached that didtheyreadit.com thing perfect.
So this is my cassette I'm sending you, I hope you get it,
I'm on a high cliff now. I'm doing diving in the Pacific.
Hey C., I've taken zero swimming classes, ya dare me to dive?
You know that song by Evanescence, "Tourniquet", that I heard last night?
About that gal who asked for deliverance from Christ, but didn't get it?
Then committed suicide? Know how similar to myself I've found it?
Coz that's kinda how this is. You could have changed my mind "bout suiciding.
Now it's too late. I'm on the highest cliff right now, I'm dizzy.
And all I wanted was a tiny email or a call,
I hope you know I've put your FACES portrait all o'er the wall.
I love you C., you haven't considered it,
But it's not your fault that I can't sleep and dream about you, C.,
And that when I dream, I scream callin' for you C.
It's my fault, my conscious eats at me and I won't breathe without you,
See C. (barking) - shut up, I'm bein' recorded for cryin' out loud
Hey C., that's my poor puppy dog tryin' to get out.
But let's drop that, I'm sorry "bout my last email you've read too,
I wanted to clarify in what way I love you, now I need to apologize to you,
Well, gotta go, I've got the courage to jump now,
Damn I forgot I'm supposed to send you this thing. How

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Chorus:

My tears have gone cold, I'm wonderin' why I'm still living at all,
November morning, rain is falling, and I don't cry at all,
Coz even if I cried it'd be the same, no pic of you on my desktop
That reminds me that it's very bad, it's very bad.


4th verse:

Hi D.,
I meant to reply sooner but I've been too busy.
Got a situation now, what about you D.?
Look, I'm really flattered you've been waiting for me like that,
And here's an album with my pictures, I hope you'll enjoy seeing that.
I'm sorry I'm responding too slow, but I kind of miss you,
Don't think I get silent intentionally, just to diss you.
And what's that thing you said about cutting your chest?
I say that thing's too sappy really, c'mon, won't you give it some rest?
You've got some issues D., you gotta get some friends there,
To help you get over those difficult times you bear.
And what's that didtheyreadit.com thing too?
That sort of thing would make me think we shouldn't mail each other.
I think you and your friend you've introduced me to need each other
Or maybe you just need to meet her more often.
I hope you get the chance to read this stuff,
I don't track your emails and I wouldn't bluff.
But please don't hurt yourself, I think you could be doing just fine
If you'd think a little different. I'm glad I inspire you,
But D., why are you so pissed? Try to understand that I'd accept you as a friend,
I just don't want you to do some crazy things
As in this story I've seen on the news a couple days ago that made me sick:
Some teenage was high and jumped from the highest cliff
And had a puppy in her arms, who was pregnant with her puppy kid,
And the waves brought ashore a tape, but can't recall who it was too.
Come to think about it Her name was it was you!!!
OOOOPS







Feb. 14th, 2005